Oprah’s much anticipated interview with Rihanna aired last night. During the interview Oprah asked all of the questions we’ve wanted answers to and Rihanna didn’t hold back.

Rihanna admitted that she gets lonely and doesn’t like being considered a “role model” because of the high expectations that come with the title. When asked about her relationship with Chris Brown, Rihanna said that she was angry and hurt BUT she wanted Chris Brown to get help. She admitted that she met Chris Brown in St. Tropez and said that her encounters with him are sometimes “awkward” because she still “loves him.”

Rihanna also explained how she had to first forgive her father before she could finally forgive Chris Brown for physically abusing her in 2009.